As a tree grows, each passing moment in its life helps to define its growth. When the tree is cut down and the rings of growth are inspected, be it a severe drought, fire or even insect damage can be documented. These rings are the history of that single tree; the life event that shows up strongly in one tree’s ring pattern may not read as catastrophic on the next. So while they were both affected, it was to different degrees. Life events affect us all differently and they mold and influence our lives uniquely. Some positively, and some negatively, but it takes each of those “rings” to build off of and create our story. Some of us brave harsh life storms and the imprint on us is minimal, whereas others of us are strongly influenced and shaped by things that seem irrelevant to others. For me, the past 14 months have created a life ring that has defined and shaped me like no other.
Days before Christmas my husband was diagnosed with Guillain Barre Syndrome, a debilitating virus that can cause rapid onset paralysis. He was rushed to our state research hospital and admitted. I was scared, terrified really at the uncertainty of the situation. When we met with doctors they informed us this would be quite a long stay; months upon months and that we needed to prepare for him to go on life support. My head reeled.
We entered into 2016 with a lot of anxiety, fear and hospital bills. Oh how those alone almost brought my family to its knees. My husband came home from the hospital quicker than expected but using a walker and requiring additional care. It was hard but we were pushing through. The end of January a blizzard hit. While I was trapped in my house with two babies with Chicken Pox and trying to shovel snow (a job my husband typically handled), I received the call that my grandmother was in the hospital and wasn’t expected to make it. Luckily, I was able to rush to her side one final time before she passed.
From that moment on I didn’t look up. I didn’t stop. I grew, I designed, I mothered, I did everything I could in order to not THINK about all that had just happened. We grew more flowers than we ever had, Brian slowly but surely got better, we did many bigger weddings and more than ever before. Harmony Harvest began to really sing and I lost myself in all of the chaos that flower season brings.
I have high hopes, grand plans AND I have some really exciting news to share. I will do all of that next week at the start of our next ring of life!